Early morning words of wisdom
Hang on, just let me lean a little to the left and crane my head a bit further… no, the sun’s not quite up yet. The sky is a beautiful pinky, lavender and mauve colour though and, aha (!), yes, I can see the first hint of an orange glow peeping up behind the hills. OK, if I’m quick I may be able to capture the view, 2 secs!
Well, it is a little hazy today, but I think I just about managed to get something on my little camera – you get the picture anyway (pardoning the pun!).
So here I am at oh, it’s now 6.04, on a very bright and sunny Saturday morning, which is quite impressive I think! A non-work day and here I am up and functioning, I even have a cup of earl grey that is wafting suitably aromatically and helping me to come to. I guess the fact that I headed home for an early night (sans alcohol) and grabbed a few very good hours of kip probably helped – although my slumber was broken at some point by my husband who had opted to meet some friends for drinks coming home, nothing unusual there I hear you say, except for the fact I awoke to find him (in yes, a slightly happy aka pleasantly squiffy state) chasing a gecko down the stairs! They are cute little things but certainly not something you’d necessarily welcome into your house for the night. Anyway, having snuck in off the roof as my husband came in, it played a very good game of hide and seek – of which my husband lost several rounds, ok all of them – before finally being condescending to being picked up and politely shown the door. At which point, secure in the knowledge that our house was reptile free and having had enough nocturnal excitement of the lizard variety I promptly headed back to my repose.
Where was I!? Ah, yes, so here I am bright and early, blogging, and when I’m done blogging, booking (so to speak). I have several blissful hours of nothingness stretching ahead of me so I had better get stuck in. I did actually get up early on Weds and Friday to do some writing stuff (and Thurs too but alas that was for work) so I am feeling rightly pleased with myself
What I wanted to say on my last post – or rather had intended to talk about before I added the briefest of brief endings to it so I could just get the post up – was that with the end now being all too scarily in sight, I had been sort of taking stock a little of what I’d done so far, what’s changed and what I’ve learnt so far from this whole experience… I know very deep huh!? Don’t worry, I didn’t dwell on the whole deep thing for too long! Just enough to realise that I have generated an incredible amount of stuff and that I have to, just HAVE to (in a bit of an OCD kind of way) finish this. Going to work everyday is great, I like the people I work with and everything, but I can never, ever, escape the odd and indescribable feeling that I don’t quite fit in and I should be doing something else (like book signings – yay!). Sure there are good days when I almost forget the feeling, but more often than not I am slightly detached, slightly aloof and yes slightly frustrated with myself for not having accomplished what I want to accomplish – specifically the book. The feeling is inescapable, as are all the thoughts and ideas and story lines I have for the book. It goes round and round in my mind, in a good way though, it’s a feeling like you’re polishing a diamond (how grandiose is that darling!) not that I’m suggesting for one second that my book will be a gem, but you know what I mean, I hope.
It was definitely the Maya Angelou quote that got me thinking – damn, I just realised I didn’t check out yesterday’s quote of the day when I was in the coffee shop! Ah well, will have to find one of my own today Here you go – first one I came across:
“Please stop waiting for a map. We reward those who draw maps, not those who follow them.”
Seth Godin, Poke the BoxHow very apt! Although I have no idea who Seth Godin is! Going back to accomplishing stuff, I think I have a lot of hard work to do yet, but I am still determined to move it forward, and I am sooooo pleased I set myself the deadline and started this blog. To roughly quote someone else ‘the only place you’ll find success before work is in the dictionary’. No idea who said that so in the interests of completeness I guess I’d better check… ah, ok, so it is attributed to both Vidal Sassoon and Donald Kendall (Donald who?). So there you go
Anyway back to Maya’s quote which was basically change the situation or change your attitude (or as some of my less eloquent colleagues in the past would have put it ‘put up or shut up’!).
Clearly I am set on changing my situation, but it is also much much more than that. I think it’s about being what you want to be, ok who I want to be… and I can’t resist adding the line here ‘when I grow up’! That’s it, that’s exactly it, that’s the feeling I have the whole time! I haven’t quite grown up yet into whatever it is I should be doing. How funny for that to come out like that. I absolutely hadn’t thought of the feeling in that way before but it just sort of came out as I was writing… wow.
So, there you go, a bit of a revelation for me there, and it’s not even 7am yet! I’ve just realised I haven’t even talked about my book progress yet, but you know what? I am going to save that for the next post as I want to make the most of this beautiful early morning feel good feeling and leave with one more (anonymous) quote that has stuck with me over the past goodness knows how many years:
‘If you always do what you’ve always done, you’ll always get what you always got’
Enough said. Ciao.
PS enjoy the pics!